you knew it couldnt last

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ok i dont want to generalize because i hate what about i'm about to say but i dont know if it's a man-woman thing or a maturity thing but i'm about to pop his cork. i appreciate that we haven't been able to get a lot of work done and we're cramped in this room together with no kitchen and for the most part he's been cool about a lot of things but let me tell you one thing, i don't know ALL the answers but i've been coming to baja plenty and i do KNOW WHAT THE FUCK I'M DOING! i've driven a boat millions of times, i've used this engine MILLIONS of times.

and trust me i'm open to suggestions, but don't be so fucking condescending and act like i don't know what i'm doing. and feel free to make suggestions but remember if i don't take your suggestions, at the very least RESPECT MY FUCKING WISHES. don't fucking scoff. because, yes, part of working in mexico is being flexible and sometimes slow, and noone is more frustrated than i that i keep hitting roadblocks because GUESS WHO'S PAYING?? FOR EVERY GAWWWWWWDAMN DAY THAT I'M NOT GETTING WORK DONE I'M STILL PAYING FOR THE FOOD AND THE HOUSING AND FOR WHATEVER ELSE NEEDS DONE.

and this is a small fucking town! i mean all the guys i met last year that i got fish from, totally remember me. and when something goes wrong, if i talk to them they already know it. so please fucking behave and if i ask you NOT to set up the stove on the porch or leave your shit laying around because we're just renting a room and it is NOT our house and believe it or not in spite of seeing a lot of trash some places, mexicans that own property or own things keep them fastidiously clean. look at all the women that get up at 6 in the fucking morning no matter how shanty like their house looks to sweep out their house and sweep the walk and street in front of their house. so i find that if you leave ice chests, dirty dishes your wrenches, your cups your chair and all your shoes out on the porch that is totally visible to the street it is disrespectful to the people who own it and who make sure their stuff looks nice from the street. so when i ask you to please pick up and not leave shit on the porch don't SCOFF at me and act like i'm making a big deal out of nothing. this is a SMALL town and ALOT of the work i have gotten done is with the help of the people who live here and i plan on coming back year after year so you may be the ugly american and never come back here or depend upon the hospitality or generousity of the people you meet here so be it but FUCKING do not disrespect my wishes in this regard.

*deep breath*

ok i just had to get that out.