DECOMPRESSON

well, i gave my talk.

and holy crap i'm glad i've maintained a philosophy of "black shirts only for talks" because i'm pretty sure that was a FULL bucket of sweat that dripped down my back and filled my jeans. JEEEBUS!

and it went better than it should have. but i also forgot to say stuff that i was bummed i didn't keep in because i was only alloted 15 minutes and when i practiced my talk it always came out to 25 minutes so i left out some interesting side notes.

but anywayyyyyyyyyyyy

it was a good conference and i ran into some people that used to be a large part of my life and i'm not even exactly sure what happened (i have an idea...and i'll try to write about it) or at least i don't know their side of it. i just know that there was a huge event that they weren't involved in and any contact with them after said event stopped. my birthday cards, christmas cards and emails all went unanswered, so assumed that they stopped talking to me because of that event. which is sad. and

could i be any more cryptic?

i'm just not writing it out completely here and now because i have lost some trust in blogger, having typed up long posts and then watched them evaporate into the blog-o-sphere.

not fun.

i need a break. i haven't had a break for a long time. it's one of those dilemmas where you NEED a break, but you can't afford a break. and then even if you could take the time off you can't afford to go anywhere. it's kinda frustrating. although, my uncles are coming to pick up gran on sunday for thanksgiving and she will be gone an entire week i'm starting to get ideas about how to spend that break and i'm looking forward to it...

things i will need for my "break:"
- 10 movies i've been dying to see
- beer
- veggies and dip
- my watercoloring stuff

sounds perfect to me. while gran is gone i am not looking at one scientific thing-y, i'm not going to look at my data, i'm not going to read literature. i'm going to paint, watch movies and sleep. for a week. a whole week. just me.

i can hardly wait