oh for fuck's sake

unbelievable.

here i thought my orals exam would be the most difficult thing i would have to endure regarding my project this year.

i was wrong.

the beaurocratic nonsense is much worse. and much more expensive. this day just keeps getting worse and worse and i'm not sure how much more of this i can take. the shit that i hate the most is that i have given people information, have talked FREELY about my plans and my site and what i want to do and even had people ASSISTING me in purchasing certain things and now that i've bought the fucking boat now they're like, oh that boat won't work. we can't approve your plan with that boat. oh no. not safe. and i feel like i'm getting sandbagged because it's NOT LIKE THEY DIDN'T HAVE THE FUCKING INFO BEFORE

it's not like i was hiding shit from them and was hoping htey wouldn't notice...it's been full fucking disclosure this whole time. and now someone comes in (a friend) says, well, they don't feel like you're communicating with them. and i lost it. fucking lost it. i said do you want to see the fucking emails i've sent them? with ALL the fucking info? they're fucking liars

ack

so fucking pissed right now.