numb with despair

and then panic

and then numb again

it's 9 pm. less than 18 hours away from my exam. i'm feeling scared and panicked and numb.

this almost feels like too much. and i don't know if i've done enough. when i practice, i skip, i stall, i stammer, i lose words. words like "the" and "random" and "common"

how the hell am i supposed to remember "geographic mosaic of coevolution" or "island biogeography equilibrium theory" or "pharyngeal jaw?"

i honestly don't know what i will do if i don't pass.