i just realized

even after i take my exam, there's no down time! **starts ripping hair**

i've got to get my research trip together, buy a boat, rent a van, buy a motor, hire people, all without the FREAKING MONEY!!. what the hell's up with those people. i opted to have the money given directly to me instead of the university so that i would have the freaking money BEFORE i left for my research and now i still don't have the money and i gotta start buying crap.

AND the permit is going to take 180 days to process. 180 days!! after i get the paperwork in. AFTER. and it has to be in spanish. SPANISH. i speak spanish. hola como esta? donde esta la migra? estoy estudiando cabrilla. not "i am a marine researcher looking at the different life history stages of grouper to determine where they are most vulnerable in order to effectively design marine protected areas" spanish. this fucking thing is 18 pages long. and that's just the FIRST permit. AND it's going to cost $700...that as i've mentioned before...I DON'T HAVE YET. not to mention that 180 days is long AFTER the grouper stop spawning.

why did i want to be a marine ecologist? somebody please remind me...

QUICK!