surreal

ok so besides the apartment i get to use i'm also feeding someone's dog for the next few days.

yesterday, on christmas day, i went over in the morning to feed him and let him out and i opened the front gate to the yard and there's a big tree that basicly the canopy covers the yard from the gate to the roof of the house and it was all very edwardscissorhand surreal the way the sky was gray and the sun was behind the house and there was that brightgray glare going on and i looked up because i saw something floating down to the roof and to the ground and at first i thought oh it's just leaves but they were drifting slowly, not at all like leaves and i couldn't see them at first because they were silhouetted against the glare.

so when one finally landed on the ground i saw it was a feather. and then when i realized that was a feather i realized that the front deck had quite a few feathers all around, some long tail-like feathers and some that looked like fluffy underfeathers.

i looked up again, and more feathers floating down. imagine quizzical look on my face.

i look down and amongst the feathers was the feather covered skull cap and top beak laying near my feet. and at first i thought goddamn cats!!! (don't get me started on how cats are bad for the environment!!!) but then i thought. no way. those feathers are drifting down from waaaayyyy up there. and i was scanning the tree for some clues as to what happened and as i stepped back to get a better look on the other side

a huge hawk flew off. and it was amazing. first the size alone was impressive. i've seen hawks all my life where i grew up and i'm absolutely fascinated with predators of all kinds but i'd never seen one that close and it's density and buld was awesome. and i was thinking man he was RIGHT there and i didn't see him and then i thought he was totally watching me the whole time

and that thought popping in my head was soooo cool