rough couple of days...but things are looking up

so, we've been fighting alot. and it sucks. and i would have to say that the fighting is not due to a lack of love or affection but of communication. because i know i love her, and i know she loves me. but dammit if we're not so stubborn that we sometimes have these impasses that at the time feel so overwhelmingly impossible to get through. they scare me.

but we're ok now. and we are working on the communication. i know it's difficult over IM to hear inflections and it's easy to mistake meaning and so misunderstandings do happen. and i've explained to her how it feels when the first words out of her mouth (message window) are WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN? and mad faces. and i understand she misses me and that means alot to me but i do react quickly and negatively to yelling or criticism. that is not the way to stay in my good graces or to maintain a crush! lol

but we talked. and, frankly it helps that she absolutely adores me and i think we both have equal power over each other with our voices so we just melt when we hear the other. and of course, i adore her too.

so my car crapped out yesterday and grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr that pisses me off! it's a relatively new car, on 5 years old. newest car i've owned! so i ran my errands in gran's car yesterday and kept trying to start it. it just clicked..clickclickclick...grrr

so i looked it up on the internet. i'm telling you google rocks. i typed in "car won't turn over clicking sound" and fuck an a if sites didn't come up with those words AND i found one page that was a diagnosis page. it said "car won't start, makes clicking noise" and so i clicked on it and it gave me three options: dead battery, dead starter, loose or corroded battery cables. well, it definitely wasnt the third. they were very clean and tight. so gran went and bought jumper cables because she used to have some but ever since my grandfather passed away tools and whatnot disappear from the garage and toolchest so poor gran who thinks she has pliers, a drill, jumper cables, multiple extension cords whatever goes to get them or someone comes to do work and they say do you have an extension cord or like today, when i asked if she had jumper cables they were gone. i have jumper cables, but they're in my big truck box IN MY TRUCK WHICH IS STILL IN THE SHOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so, i told gran that if we jump the car and it starts then it's most likely a dead battery. if we jump it and it doesn't start, then it's the starter. well, it started. so i took the battery out put it in my gran's trunk and we took it to the car parts store where they can test it and where i can buy a new one. so we walk in and there is my ex-brother in law (my sister m's ex husband) who she set up with her best friend and he got her pregnant so now he has one kid with my sister and one kid with her best friend...can you say SOAP OPERA? poor guy. he's a nice guy too. and my sister's best friend is kind of a demanding shrew like my sister. eek!

anyway, he tests the battery and it's dead. YAY! so i buy a new battery. except after i got home i thought well, if it was the starter then that would have been covered by the extended warranty i purchased

OH OH OH OMG SO COOL A HAWK JUST FLEW BY MY WINDOW WHILE I WAS TYPING THIS. OMG SO BEAUTIFULLLLL!!!

ok sorry i get excited when i see hawks

but anyway, i bought a new battery and it works! YAHHHHH because TOMORROW is the beginning! the beginning of hte END OF MY SANITY !!!!!!!!!

i start commuting to school 4 days a week to TA a class and then hopefully start studying for my orals. eeek

so tonight i'm going to go get a take and bake pizza and bakeit in my sister's oven up the hill and then come back here and eat it and watch ellen degeneres and before she freaks out reading this...lol SPEND TIME WITH MY SWEETIE!!

here

on this very internet!!!